Some of us might think that, it's a song i'm gonna talk about. But no.
I'm going to type out my life story.
This is dedicated to those out there, whoever it might be and those i love. i might mention some of your name but no offence taken.
I have always thought that nothing would change, not until recently.
Do you have the feeling of being pushed away when you tried to get close to someone? Especially, someone you care about, love and even someone you think he/she is your best friend?
I have. I'm serious, what I am going to continue on would be about impression, trust, love, hate, unpredictable change and many more.
Well, to be truthful first impression of someone to me meant alot.
Because, many of my friends know that i know how to read minds.
I don't know if it's a good or bad thing but it did benefit me.
Though, sometimes first impression but be wrong but it is important.
1B23' 10/11

Jiali, your first impression to me was an unfriendly girl but after so long, time proved that you aren't. I'm not going to continue with this because in time to come, you would know more about what I think about you and what time show me about you.
Cheryl, you give me sense of belonging when I first might you and is one that won't wait for something to happen. I don't know what you think about me but you are definitely one great friend to be with.

There are still so many of you, which i won't be able to post it here.
As I've mention, in time to come you would know it in one way or another.

What about trust? Have I gotten your trust? Did I trust you? This our trust strong enough to tide through everything and anything? This is it even enough for you to just stand up for me when others talk negatively about me? Think about it.
I trust you so much, yet once and again you have to make me build up a wall between us. This is to most of my friends, love and sometimes enough my family. I'm ready to face anything and everything with you, if you trust me.
Hold on to my hand and we would be able to get out of any trouble or whatsoever. Put down your guard against me, maybe everything would be different from now. Maybe, we would be able to make a big difference in each other's life. Maybe, most of us won't end up in depression. Maybe, our tears won't roll down, our hearts won't be torn apart.

Love and hate. It's contradicting but it's true. How much you hate that person, it just boils down to how much you love and care about that person. You just have to admit it, don't you? I hate you because I used to love you. When you chose your friends over me. All the good things you did to me, they just have to become the reasons why I hate you. To many of us, through break-ups don't you agree with what i just said? This applies not to relationships only, it happen to almost everything, might it be the departure of your love ones, your friends. Or someone you just can't forget about. Love and hate is just like angel and devil.
This could take place in a day, an hour, minute or even seconds. Forgo hate, don't let the devil take over you. It's torturous. Love them even more, only then would they feel it. Be an angel. Hating someone is much more difficult compared to loving someone. Always remember this.

Well, unpredictable.
Life, love, death and many more is unpredictable.
You don't know what would happen the next moment, you would never know when would be your deadline.
Many turns that took place was unpredictable. Many of my friends would know that I've always been a low self-confidence girl. Yes, because of my past. I was fat before. I admit it because it's the truth. I'm rebellious, I have attitude problem, selfish, self-centered, overall I'm a bad girl. That's how I was.
It's you whom changed me, I don't have to mention your name. I guess you should know who you are.
Boy, you change me to a girl that is gentle, care a lot more about people around me than myself, with self-confidence, strive to achieve my goals, even someone that I didn't expect myself to be.
Although, we might not have talk for a long time but i hope we would still be able to have a chat like how we used to be, just like friends.
Well, I have to thanks someone. My grandmother. Many of 4E3'09 peeps would know how much she changed me.
I never took GCE 'O' Level seriously, not until the moment she passed away.
I have been failing almost every subject. Even if it's a pass, it's just a borderline one. She was the one who made me realise I've to score well, make her proud.
Yeah, maybe you could also say that I didn't know her well. She doesn't know how i look like, because it's a pity she lost her sight in her 50s. She also made me realise that I wasn't spending enough time with my family. Indeed, it's a regret in my life which wouldn't be changed. From then did i realise, I have to make time for my family, just for those special moments.
Now, it's my uncle. He's just not another uncle, in my 17 years of life, he is the one who taught me what's right and what's wrong.
Even my little niece, Yiling, at the last night of his wake, she knew she lost her beloved grandfather for good, she cried. She's just 3 years old. Even a 3 years old kid like how knew how much her grandfather love her. What's more for me? A 17 years old teenager. There's only one thing I would like to mention here, no matter how bad the person could have been, when he/she is gone, you would cry for them. It's just these small things that make them different from others. No one is perfect, we just have to accept their flaws and make a difference in their life. Live everyday like your last, with all you can. Never have any regrets in life. Because, they are just too painful and would be a tattoo in your heart.

Bring us back to how we used to be, it's all just these small things but they make a big difference to us.
(P.S sorry for the long wordy post. )
With love,
Xin Ting♥